mom's day

Mothers day is weird. I love seeing all the pictures and sweet comments celebrating your moms, but I am not going to lie, I am bitter. Bitter that this is my 9th mothers day without my mom to hug. Jealous that you even have pictures to post with your moms, while I only have pictures from my first 13 years. Bitter that your moms get to see you begin dating the love of your life, go through high school and college, move out on your own. Angry that I can't hear my mom's beautiful and contagious laugh fill the room, or see her blue eyes literally sparkle when all of her babies are together in one place. I find myself not necessarily feeling sad but just angry. Like I deserve to have my mom here for all these moments. Why me? Why was my mom only able to see me up until my awkward braces stage? Only see my 2 sisters barely reach elementary school and only see sweet Cole at 4 years old? It is not fair. It just isn't. 
I can continue to feel sorry for myself, angrily scrolling through all these sweet mothers day posts..or I can look at it in another light. My mom taught me how to love others, instilled in me my love for children, showed us the importance of keeping Jesus the center of everything. My mom showed us how to keep dancing and laughing no matter what. We learned the art of wendy's fries dipped in frosties and she introduced us to Starbucks frappacinos at a very early age. She exemplified living your life for Christ and always giving to others before yourself. We learned so much! And we are so lucky for those years with her, though they may have been cut shorter than we would've chosen. My mom showed us unconditional love, sacrifice, and support. She flourished as a mom and everyone who knew her, knew how much she loved being our mother. 
She gave us everything we could've ever imagined. She was so so sick and did everything she possibly could to keep our lives "normal". She never wanted us to see her not feeling well. Even if she was in bed from the time we got on the bus in the morning, she would do everything she could to be up and downstairs when we got home in the afternoon. She was so worried about us coming to visit her in the hospital because she didn't want us seeing her like that. She protected us from every pain and suffering she possibly could while here on Earth. She told us over and over and over that Jesus was in control, that He could most certainly heal her, but that He may have another plan in store. She was everything to us, even in her sickest days.

I know she is looking down from the streets of gold just counting down the days till her babies will be with her again. And what a wonderful day that will be!

Carrie Fogleman at roughly 22

Skin care

Let's talk about our skin!

Recently, I've taken an interest in taking care of my face. Weird, but I've never really done much besides moisturize it every night. I've been reading some blogs and articles and suddenly felt lead to make a change in my routine. It's small but mighty and paired with this incredibly foundation I've discovered..its fool proof!! (The below photo is 100% edit free. Like what!!)

Rose oil. This stuff is liquid gold. I picked up some rose oil blend by Pixi at target on Monday. 5 days ago. Not even 2 days later of daily AM and PM application of 2 measly drops on my face and I felt and saw a huge difference. Like I said, liquid gold!! I don't even need to moisturize my face any more. This stuff does it all; moisturize, tighten, smooth. So basically everything you could ever want in a face product. The bottle is cute and will last forever since you only use 4 drops a day!

Next product... No. 7 airbrush away foundation. A famous blogger posted this foundation earlier this week, and normally I don't believe those "sponsored ads", but I decided to give this one a shot and man I'm glad I did. It's thin yet covers just enough, feels like you aren't even wearing makeup all day, LASTS ALL DAY, and also comes in cute packaging ;) If you try it and aren't satisfied I'll pay you $5. Like honestly it's so worth it. I've tried so many different foundations..at different price ranges..and never felt like I truly found "the one". Well now I have and I'm sooo in love. 

Combine these 2 products and you will see results in less than a week. Promise. My face is smooth and perfectly moisturized and just feels good. It's hard to describe but just trust me!!! 

Diy mid century desk

Several months before I even found my current apartment, I knew I needed a desk. I had one in my room at my parents..but it was big and bulky and not exactly what I was picturing for my new space. My sisters and dad went with me to lowes and took a picture on Pinterest and made it come to life! 

I adore this desk and adore how EASY it was too. There were some parts where Dad took over, but for the most part i was able to build this desk with little guidance and I am so proud! It's exactly what I was picturing and makes my living room complete. 

Natural makeup

It took me a while to join the nude makeup train, but I've finally hopped on.

I always thought that with my coloring it just didn't work, but it's all about choosing the right shade of nude. 

I chose to pair this nude lip from Too Faced with simple eyeshadow but dramatic lashes. I love lashes. They're my favorite part of doing my makeup. Especially having blonde eyelashes, mascara is just plain magic. 

Also, so loving eyebrows lately. Mine are so light but I can still fill them in properly and it truly completes my entire makeup look. 

Products used:

Anastasia dipbrow pomade in blonde. 

Loreal true match lumi in shade N3

NYX eyeshadow in vixen (eyebrow highlight)

Makeup geek eyeshadow in unexpected

LORAC eyeshadow in deep purple

Loreal true match super blendable blush in baby blossom

Hard Candy so baked bronzer in tiki (highlighter)

Eyelure lashes #080

Rimmel glam'eyes mascara (absolute favorite mascara ever)

Too Faced melted lipstick in melted sugar